At four
years old, I played a blue bird in "Wizard of Oz." Although it was only
my first time on stage, I feel in love with performing and had to be
dragged off stage by my dance teacher and two ballerinas! I did not
intend to leave that stage! I wanted nothing more in life, and that
feeling never left me.
I studied
everything and poured my heart into dance. Then, when I was 13, my
teachers began giving me a hard time because my shape was getting
naturally curvy instead of looking like a bean sprout. I got discouraged
and quit dance classes for three years. I was taking tap lessons at the
same studio where someone was also teaching belly dance. When I started,
the teacher’s best friend and I were the only students. Can you imagine
a belly dance class not completely overflowing these days?
Soon
after, I found "The Habibi Dancers" in Lansing, Michigan. I audition for
a part in the dance company and was accepted. I believe it’s common in
non-profit Mid-Eastern companies to focus on the group. If there is a
soloist, it’s usually the artistic director. The need in me was so
intense to break away and find my own voice. That’s when I decided I
would make the pilgrimage. So in 2001, I left for Egypt dreaming of
dancing as a soloist.
I found work in Cairo, Sinai,
Port Said, Alexandria, and Algiers. Each day and each job was intensely
rich, layered with purpose, and kept me on my toes. I was in a constant
state of new experience and assimilation. Egypt is an environment
teeming with so much color that one simply forgets the definition of
boredom.
Dancing there was not what I
thought it would be. My first reaction was, “This is not what I signed
up for!"” In the end, it was educational though. My entire approach to
oriental dance has morphed and so has my response to viewing it. It can
be a whole new world dancing within these elements.
I left because of the ban against foreign dancers. There is work outside
of Egypt but how long can you really live out of a suitcase? I also came
to realize that I was nearing the end of one cycle. I knew that the
moment was optimum for me to return home and begin translating my
experiences and the insights.
And now I
am positively bursting at the seams!!!! To think there was a time when I
considered giving up. I ask myself, what would I be if I were not a
dancer? I have no idea!!! So here I am in a sea of everlasting
extraordinary dancers/teachers and I can only pray that there's room for
one more.